So what happens after you die? Cooper-sensei says that after you die, the catholics say you go to purgatory, and then you hang out there for a while. He doesn’t believe anyone goes to hell. He says that if you’re very bad, you just sit in purgatory forever, whereas if you’re just a normal person you sit for a while and then go up to heaven.

I think theres hell. There has to be. The devil doesn’t hang out in purgatory, thats for sure. Anyways, I figure that if you’re evil, you go straight to hell. If you’re moderately not-a-good-person, you chill in purgatory, and they make you watch and go over all your sins. Even the minor ones. So i was thinking -- if this is the system they use, then what is the reaction they want? Like, if you’re so ashamed of your sins and you can’t take it, do you go to hell? On one hand, you’re feeling shame, which means you could repent, but on the other hand, you can’t take it, so you may not have moral fiber.

But, if you sit right through every sin right to the end, does that mean you’re callous? Or just that you have the balls to face up to your sins? And who the hell is in charge anyways?

My mom told me once that she thought that every soul in heaven gets to watch a movie of their entire life-to-be -- from their birth to their death. If they like that life, then they go down and be born and live the life they just watched, and that is why you have deja vu because you are remembering what you saw before you were on earth.

I don’t understand why people would want to take their lives, where theres so much to think about afterwards. Justin was saying that he thinks death is freeing, like when we’re on earth we’re in a cage in a zoo and then when we die we’re free. I think, I want to make sure I’ve lived the cage before I venture out elsewhere. I might miss the cage. We’re not all free spirits. A cage isn’t just 4 walls and 4 corners -- there could be other cages you could go to, and still be happy.

JTHM has people in heaven sitting around in chairs being all happy. Thats gotta be boring as hell. If i croak tomorrow and go to heaven, theres so many people i would want to talk to. I wouldn’t want to sit around in a chair being enlightened.

A long time ago, i read Siddhatra (if thats how it’s spelled -- it’s been a while) which is basically about a guy who goes around and trying to find enlightenment. I forget if he finds it or not, since it bored me to tears and all i remember is the part where he got lessons in sex.

Kitty says she’s going to dream about me getting laid. With kyo as my SSS. We’re supposed to be remembering our dreams and analyzing them, the key word in the assignment being Anal. i haven’t even started, and i’ve got a ton of stuff to do for monday. I actually remembered what i dreamed about last night, which is sorta rare. I stayed in bed for an hour going over and over it to make sure i remembered. And sure enough, as soon as I sat up to write it down, i totally forgot. I think i got most of it though. it was pretty weird, when i type up the assignment i’ll post it and then we can all go “uuber” and flurble about and just stare at isabella for a while.

mou. i lost my train of thought.

-shuu, over and out

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